Keane’s fall

when s**t happens, you realise how weak you are and how strong you can be.

Keane fell off the bed on last Sunday and then he fell sick with fever and flu a few days back. So crappy things happen, they really do happen all at once.

We’re still not sure how Keane fell, but he landed with a huge thud that I could hear all the way at my kitchen. I felt so guilty, my tears just couldn’t stop. I was the only one at home after I put Keane down for his usual morning nap on my bed. He loved rolling around our bed cos it was big and he could be in his little gymnast mode. Hubby went out for a while then and after making sure that Keane was in deep sleep, I went to my study to send some emails and check on some work. Hubby came back in 10 minutes and when he opened the door to check on Keane, he saw baby land on the floor wailing. I think I almost fainted when he told me what had happened. I never expected Keane to fall off the bed. I was at a complete loss. Everyone usually depended on me to tell them what to do, how to do it when it comes to caring for baby. But this time around, I felt like everything was tearing apart.

Thankfully, hubby decided to take charge and quickly calmed Keane down. He stopped crying after 3 minutes. We quickly got on our way to KKH for a check cos I was so paranoid. Even after my mommy friends told me it’s ok and we could monitor him at home, I felt so horrid and wanted to just speed away to the doc. I needed a medical professional to tell me “it’s okay, he’ll be okay”.

Fast forward 72 hours after the fall, Keane had gone through his observation period smoothly. No bumps were seen or felt in this period, no vomiting, no lethargy, healthy appetite, but my heart certainly went into overwork. By the way, Keane’s poop was green! FIL probably said it’s the shock he suffered during the fall that caused it to turn this revolting colour. Interesting

Then soon after that, he had fever and flu. The poor boy was wheezing and tossing around his bed. And as we all know, if baby doesn’t sleep well, parents don’t sleep at all. I took out all the ointments, turned up the dehumidifier and ioniser, and took out the scent vaporiser. I believed it work slightly but I guess he still couldn’t run from another visit to the doctor.

I’m sorry, baby. I promise to be with you 24/7 as much as I can. And, sorry that you’re feeling so awful despite your super bright smiles.

keane's fall


ImageToday’s biggest surprise was knowing baby’s gender. And we’re having a boy! Although Dr Tan can’t confirm yet till we do the detailed scan in week 20, the pics she took of baby today did look quite convincing. I really thought she was just joking when she asked if hubby and I wanted to know the gender cos my mind was a total blank whenever I see my gynae. All I wanted to do during this check up was to let Dr Tan know that I’ve started vomiting in week 13 due to phlegm build up and the annoying, terrible tension headaches. I had totally forgotten that if I’m lucky and baby is in the right position, I could find out the gender of the baby. Maybe baby was being a really good boy cos I’ve been reminding the little one to be in the best position so I’ll know how to choose his baby stuff. Pink baby stuff is really cute!

We have a name for baby, which we will tell our closed friends and family after we get our confirmation next month. Hubby is really, really happy and I don’t know if it’s cos he’s happy that I won’t be building a massive wardrobe for a little girl. But it’s okayyy, I will still build a massive wardrobe for a little boy. Tiny adidas sneakers, tiny converse sneakers and tiny jeans.. omggggg. so cute. I want to buy all. time to start drafting my wardrobe list….